Confessions of a Basket Case

Last week when I decided to take a short break from blogging, my intentions were good. I thought.

I just feel compelled to be quiet, to prepare my heart, and to refuel my soul. Things that don’t necessarily come naturally to me.

But looking back I am sure if I was exactly honest with you, or with me.

The truth is…

I have been a basket case preparing for Guatemala. (Did you know the definition of basket case is “a person or thing regarded as useless or unable to cope”? Yep, that has been me. Although I hide it well.)

I have stayed frantically busy so I didn’t have time to dig into the mess that is my heart.

I have been battling fears and insecurities that might just swallow me whole.

What if I don’t have words to tell the stories of the families we meet, of the amazing work being done?

What if my posts don’t measure up? (Have you read the beautiful words of my travel companions? Intimidating.)

What if no one likes me? (What am I in sixth grade? Ugh.)

I have made this amazing opportunity ALL ABOUT ME. (Yuck.)

But yesterday at Cross Point, with tears streaming my face, I was reminded I have nothing to worry about. You see, my Savior He can move the mountains. My God He is mighty to save. (The Hillsong worship songs get me every time.)

So take me as You find me,
All my fears and failures,
Fill my life again.

I give my life to follow
Everything I believe in,
Now I surrender.

My Saviour, He can move the mountains,
My God is Mighty to save,
He is Mighty to save.
Forever, Author of salvation,
He rose and conquered the grave,
Jesus conquered the grave.

Shine your light and let the whole world see,
We’re singing for the glory of the risen King

I hope that you will join me on this journey and watch God at work.

In me.

And God-willing, through me.

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Also, I hope that you will pray for me and my travel companions, for our safety, for our hearts, and for our willingness to be broken by what we experience. And pray for the people of Guatemala who are getting slammed by torrential rains and landslides.

Are you battling any fears and insecurities right now? How can people be praying for you?


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Lindsey has a sincere love for her precious dogs Molly and Maisy, a good red wine and the Delta Sky Club.

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