There really are no words but still I am going to try to express all that is laying on my heart tonight.
From the moment you ran into my arms until our last goodbye this afternoon, I absolutely loved every moment of our day together.
It was one of the best days of my life. Even hours later as I write this letter, my heart is bursting with joy. I am overwhelmed by opportunity that God has given me, to be your sponsor, and your friend.
I loved seeing where you spend your days.
This morning I saw the tiny dark room that you share with your mother, sisters, and brother. Even though it was small and imminent danger lurked outside, I could instantly tell that you felt safe there. And that made me happy.
This afternoon I got to experience the Compassion project where you play, where you learn about Jesus, and where you will find the kind of friends that will last a lifetime. I know that as you grow this place will serve as your home away from home. I know that the pastor and the project director will be there for you, anytime you need them. I know that they will see that you are molded into the Godly man you were created to be. And that made me happy.
I loved hearing firsthand about the challenges you face.
Even though it tore me up inside to see and hear the trials that you face at only four years old, it was incredible to know specifically how I can pray for you.
I will pray that you stay safe, that the gangs don’t come knocking, that the rain will let up so that when you sleep your bed is warm and dry.
And I will pray for your father, that he is safe as he travels four hours to work, that he remains strong and faithful during the week as he lives separated from his wife and children, and that he finds steady employment closer to home, closer to you.
Jenser always remember, “Life is hard, but God is good.”
God is so good. And He has big plans for you.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. Jeremiah 29:11-12 (New International Version)
I loved seeing a picture of what the future might hold for you.
You probably don’t realize this but today I met three young men who grew up in your project. Three young men that are pursuing their dreams at the University with the help of Compassion’s Leadership Development Program.
Hearing each of their stories gave me great hope for you. You can be anything you want to be. You just need to stay focused on your studies and walk where God leads you.
Most of all I loved being with you.
I loved laughing with you. I loved feeding you. I loved kicking the soccer ball with you. And I loved holding you close. How I wish that I never had to let you go.
Until we meet again, I will write you letters. Letters that keep you abreast of my adventures and dreams. Letters that remind you that you are loved. Letters that affirm everything you are learning about Jesus.
Now it is time to say goodbye again but know that a big chunk of my heart remains in Guatemala with you.
PS – I will be practicing my soccer (or football as you say) so that I can try to keep up with you when we reunite.