In the first post, I admitted I want to get married. So today I thought I’d tackle something a little less, how do I say it, well a little less humiliating. (Kidding. Kidding. In all honesty putting the whole marriage thing out there was so worth it. You guys were incredibly supportive and encouraging.)

I want to get fit.

I don’t know that I’ve ever actually been “fit.” I have been skinny. I have been fat. I have been an obsessive exerciser. I have been an award-winning couch potato. But I don’t think I’ve ever had the balance that would truly make me fit.

So that is what I am after, fit-ness.

I know that there is going to be some pain involved in this goal. And candidly I’m not a huge fan of pain. (I hate pain. Avoid it at all costs.) But hopefully it will be worth it.

I actually have a plan for how I am going to begin chipping away at this daunting goal, desire, dream. (Yay me!)

I am going to train for and participate in the Country Music Half Marathon with the Powered by Hope Team. Yes, I’ve finished two halves before.

But this time I will be different. This time I am going to stick with a training schedule. This time I am going to push myself past the pain. This time I am going to also be conscious of what I using as fuel. This time I will cross the finish line proud of the race that I have run. This time I won’t just be thinking about finishing the race. This time I will have a goal in mind, getting fit.

If you want to join me as I get fit and raise some money for an incredible and inspiring organization, visit http://whatpowersyou.org.

PS – I am hoping a by product of getting fit, is getting “sporty.” Because well…it is my favorite adjective. No lie…my favorite adjective.

Would you consider yourself fit? What does fit-ness look like in your life?

I’ve found that the most difficult thing for me is admitting I want things that I might not get, creating goals that I might not achieve, dreaming dreams that are just that, dreams.

Why should I give up without a good fight? Why should I let fear control my destiny?

I want to live boldly. I want to write an epic story. And it seems like the first step is putting pen-to-paper and defining what I want my life to look like down the road.

What better place to do that, then here, on my blog? After all, it is a place where I can say anything I want.

So WELCOME to the first in a series of posts called “Drafting Blueprints.” I’m going to try to dig deep, face my fears, tackle one “room” at a time, and dream big.

Here we go. The first one is a doozy…I want to get married.

Ughhh, did I really just say that? Those words are very practically impossible to admit.

Because when I hear people girls say that they want to get married, I think they sound PATHETIC. And I don’t want to be one of those girls, not even for a minute.

To be perfectly honest getting married is not really what I’m after. I don’t care that much about the ring, the white dress, the presents, the party (I said “that much). I don’t even dislike being single (well..sometimes I do, there is the occasional lonely Sunday night and the painfully awkward wedding party).

And I have no desire to spend the rest of my life with someone who is wrong for me. Because I already know that there is nothing worse than feeling lonely when you are not alone.

I want more than marriage. I want to marry someone special. Someone who I can love forever. Someone to build a family with. Someone to walk through life with. Someone to laugh with. Someone to cry with. Someone who will call me out when I am being a brat (yes, I can be a major brat.) Someone who will be on my team. Someone who will love me unconditionally, or as close as humanly possible.

As difficult as it is to admit… I do dream of getting married someday, of not being alone on this journey forever.

But if it doesn’t happen, I can live with that too.

“We are confident that God is able to orchestrate EVERYTHING to create something good and beautiful when we love Him and accept His invitation to live according to His plan.” Romans 8:28 (The Voice)

So how about you, do you have any dreams that are difficult to admit?