How He Loves, Tam Hodge

So thankful to have Tam Hodge, aka @inprogress, sharing today.

I started following Tam on twitter awhile back and finally had the pleasure of meeting her and her husband Brent in February when they were in town for ReCreate. I instantly knew that she was someone I needed to know better. I sure hope she felt the same way, because she is going to have a hard time shaking me.

Find Tam’s blog here.

And her twitter here.

1987, 16 1/2 years old, i sat in an abortion clinic in southern california. alone and frightened. i didn’t show it. i couldn’t show it. i wouldn’t show it.

i no longer lived at home with my family. i had to be the big girl now. i had do the right thing. i had to look out for me.

at all costs.

fifteen months later…i sat in the very same abortion clinic waiting to rid my life of one more mistake.

how could God love me after ending two innocent lives? why would He?

i never thought then of the repercussions my decisions would have. not once did i consider the impact those abortions would have on my life or the lives of others.

and it certainly never occurred to me then that i would one day have to tell my own daughter.

when i look at my daughter, kassidi, i don’t just see my first born…i see my first chosen born. i see grace. i see redemption. i see mercy. i see Love.

kass knows about my abortions now. she has ministered to many girls in her high school because of what she now knows of the subject. this is God using my ashes to demonstrate His beauty and love.

Gods love has allowed kass to experience life. her life has allowed me to know Love.

i was 16 when i had my first abortion. my first born is now 16. and she sings today because He loves us…Oh, how He loves us…

How He Loves – Kassidi from Brent Hodge on Vimeo.

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  • I love how Jesus pours from this family in the forms of blog and talent (to name a few). Love ya Tam!

  • It is such a joy knowing you. His love flows out of you…and out of your daughter…especially when she sings. Thank you so much for sharing….

    • honestly…im quite shocked, still, that you asked me to share here. and im quite honored. thank you, lindsey!

      cant wait to hug your neck soon!
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  • What a beautiful post!! I love how God can redeem EVERYTHING mistake in our lives! Thank you for sharing your story Tam!
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    • i SO love that too! i went too many years without receiving that redemption all while it was staring me right in the face.
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  • oops… I meant to say, "EVERY mistake in our lives!" 🙂
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  • Wow…

    I follow Tam on Twitter, but seeing a piece of her heart here? Beautiful story of redemption.

    God is SO good at that. We're so lucky (I know, I know, I'm supposed to say "blessed") to be recipients of that kind of love and grace.

    Thanks for introducing me to more of her.
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    • whisper: i say "lucky" all the time. i have used "xmas" too for brevity. i'm pretty sure i'm a bad person.

    • im a very 'lucky' 😉 girl to have been asked to share here!
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  • Wow!! This is so powerful! Redemption! Thank you for sharing this, Tam, and thanks Lindsey for featuring her story. How great is His affection for us!
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    • His affection is certainly beyond what we deserve…

      can you imagine if we all really, truly, loved like He Loves?

      wow! everything as we know it would change….
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    • My pleasure 🙂

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  • Wow! Trying to clean the tears off of my keyboard as I type this. HOW HE LOVES…so grateful for how He loves! Thank you Tam for this powerful post on grace and redemption.

    • if lindsey hadnt asked me to write this i probably wouldnt have. im so glad she did. it brought out a different angle of my journey/story. im very grateful.
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    • my personal goal is to see how much i can make you cry this week. 1

  • Wow. An amazing story of grace & redemption reinforced by her daughters amazing singing. As I listened to her sing, my little ones came to hear what I was listening to and sang right along. Oh how He loves!
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  • that

    love you.
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  • Wow. Probably not cool to cry here in Cracker Barrel. Redemption changes everything, and makes life whole.

  • i listened to Kassidi's song this weekend and sent it to a friend of mine, but seeing it connected to Tam's story makes it all the more meaningful. Thanks for posting this Lindsey.

    p.s. I am so intrigued that the last two posts you have written are on love and am praying God shows you wonderful things about His love this summer 🙂
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  • 1.) Hi Lindsey! I've put you in my reader now =)
    2.) Sweet mother, I love the #HodgeLodge
    3.) Props to Kass for using "sloppy wet" instead of Crowder's lame "unforeseen"

    • Makeda

      I agree! I'm glad she say sloppy wet kiss; works SOOOO much better 🙂

    • josh, kass gets the sloppy wet kiss line. she knows what she'd do if she were reunited with her loved ones after lifetimes. she's be all up in there biz with a bunch of sloppiness =D
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    • Welcome Joshua! Love your pictures.

  • I never get tired of hearing ANYONE in this family praise the Lord through song. Through words. Through prayer. Through walking each day with their heads held high so they don't miss the forgotten. This whole family is the real deal. Now to meet them in real life!!

    OK, goosebumps going done. Well done, Kass. And, once again, well said, Tam.

  • How could we not worship God, knowing how beautifully He redeems, in ways only He can? He redeems in beautiful ways.

    Thank you for allowing us to see the vulnerability, the real side of life, in order to see a powerful reminder of how He loves us.
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    • "How could we not worship God, knowing how beautifully He redeems, in ways only He can?"

      yes. well said/asked!
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  • Love ya Hodges!!! All of you!!!! And I can't wait to meet ALL of you in heaven, with my little Sophie girl in tow…
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    • if we have to wait til heaven, i'll deal with that. but i'd much rather meet sooner!
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      • You say things like that, and you might have me sitting on your doorstep one day! 🙂

  • love this song.
    love kassidi hodge.
    love tammy hodge.

    thanks for sharing this, lindsey!

  • tam, i so love your heart. i learn so much from how you've embraced God's restoration… and how you've instilled your amazing heart into your daughter. that i can call you both friends—no, family—never ceases to amaze me.

    kass, you know i love your voice and am always blown away by your musical talent. but you probably didn't know that this song has literally carried me through this past year. to see/hear you sing it? wow… i've got tears, sweet girl. thank you.

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  • Makeda

    In a world that is not this one I left this comment already but clearly I have lost my mind because I did not leave a comment yet though I meant to 🙂 (I have serious issues). But seriously Tam this was such a beautiful post. Your daughter has a great voice and her singing this song was the perfect backdrop to your beautiful story of redemption. Thank you for sharing so honestly. Lindsey thanks for giving us another chance to hear Tam's beautiful heart.

    • when lindsey asked me to write this week i thought all day about it. i knew what i'd write about, just not the 'how' part. then it occurred to me how fitting it would be for kass to sing this, those words, at 16 like i was. dang, God is so creative and good!
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  • He does love us, and you are deeply loved by Him

    Oh and is ok that I listened to Kass first before I read the whole thing? 😉

    Peace and Love

  • I love it, Tammy. 🙂
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  • You both made cry. Beautiful.

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  • sweet girls, the love of Him that pours out of both of you is stunning. i'm so grateful to be a small piece in the grand life you live.

  • Wow, Thanks for posting this Lindsey
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  • Tam, she is beautiful and so talented! You must be so proud.

    The most amazing thing about our Savior is that no matter what we do, His love is unconditional. There's no one else in the world who loves us like He does, no matter what we do to disappoint Him. Thank you for being a living, breathing reminder of that.
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    • im very proud of her. and amazed daily!

      and im so grateful that God allows us to be living and breathing reminders of His love!
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  • hmmm… this is taking me to a very interesting place, a reflection and a hope of the potential life that lives on the other side of choice.
    Thank you.
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    • exactly. theres always life after choices. i guess its just our…. choice. but dang if it doesnt sometimes take us forever to make them. at least the right ones. at least for me.

  • Two beautiful hearts.
    Thank you for sharing with us.

  • I love Tam's heart… It rocks me that this beautiful lady also had a broken past..
    why? cuz she is such an inspiration to hundreds (no exaggeration) of women and men who are trying to find their own way of restoration. She never has a condemnation about her, just a push, a whole bunch of love AND PRAYER…. and tells about hope and His steadfastness. That's what I love about her..

    Kassidi… amazing (tearful)

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  • I sure to do love those Hodges.

  • Sometimes I think about all the days that have passed. Sometimes I wish I could go back and have a "do-over" knowing then what I know now. Sometimes I think about how my children had been ruined by my poor parenting or my reactions to the things inside me that were unhealed at that time.. And it's then I see something profoundly beautiful. My story is my story. It's a story of redemption. It's the display of a life that was lived in legalism being set free…. a life lived in the flesh being restored. In this life that I have often made a mess of my children are getting a front row seat. They are watching the God of the universe who dwells inside their mother change her from the inside out. That comforts me when I remember all the regrets of my past.

    What a beautiful story, what a beautiful display of what I just wrote about above. As God is restoring you… He's revealing Himself to your daughter. Just stunning!
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  • Thank you for this Lindsey, what a picture of grace. Tams honesty pours out the grace to so many others that need it. Amazing blog.
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    • oh wow. i kept wondering why your name looked so familiar. then i realized it because i met you in '09 in TN at the recreate conference. good ole randy…bringing people together from everywhere =)
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  • Wow, I'm in tears.

    What a beautiful story of God's "No matter what" love. Thank you for sharing!!
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  • Carol Anne

    Absolutely beautiful!!! I knew girls who went through this. I am grateful you showed and shared your heart. A year ago I thought twitter was a crazy little fad. Now I believe in the purpose. My day is different and better because of you. Spreading God’s message and sharing your love and compassion, well, there can be no better purpose. Thank you!